I'm still learning
A piece about self kindness by Abigail Welsby
I’m still learning.
I’m still learning to forgive myself.
I’m still learning that emptying myself means having to trust that I will be filled again
& that letting go of the old means trusting there will be new.
I’m learning that I’ve never been great with trusting.
I’m still learning to be gentle; with myself & others that are hurting & still learning as well.
I’m joyfully watching friends get married, have children & buy homes
& I’m still learning that it is necessary to brush my hair daily.
Recently, I’ve learned that I don’t like to be alone as much as I use to
& I’m still learning to leave my door open.
I’m still learning to accept defeat & let go of my favorite love but
I’ve learned that I am not weak.
I’ve learned that ignoring my health, denying my hopes & punishing myself are not definitions of “strong”.
I’ve learned to stop punishing myself.
What I know is that my creator does not lead me on just to leave me.
I know I have been made with a purpose.
I know that I feel & sometimes it’s crippling.
I know that I don’t have to carry this weight alone.
I know that I hesitate & I know that I tend to forget what’s important.
I know that I’m still growing. I know to be patient with my heart because I’m still learning.
Abigail Welsby is fine art and portrait photographer based in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania.
Who is inspired by enticing light & deep colors. Encouraged by the stories of others and hope to find a creative way to tell them.
Follow her Instagram: https://instagram.com/abigailwelsby/